Come undone...

I went onto quite a few blogs this morning. One specific post that made me think twice was Veronica’s stance on negative people and not wanting to be around them. I can’t agree with her more...

I’ve always seen myself as quite a positive person. Or at least when i’m negative to appear positive (yeah that’s not always good either – but that’s an entire post on it’s own). But as i’m sitting here although i want to write all kinds of rosy quotes and positive reflections i only have one thing to say. My condition is starting to really get me down. And i mean down-down...

Let me explain – as you saw in my quirky last post i fell and broke my coxic bone. Since then i’ve been back to the doctor because i couldn’t stand the pain anymore (bare in mind i’m on the strongest pain medication on the market). She then sent me to an orthopedic surgeon (for an emergency visit). He poked and prodded me (love it when a senior citizen puts his finger up my ass). He then told me that i have severely injured my coxic. Not only did i crush the bottom part but i bent the rest of the coxic backwards. And NO there is nothing they can do about it – except give me more medication because the pain isn’t suppose to be as severe anymore.

He prescribed another shitload of painkillers and voltaren again. I told him i couldn’t take the voltaren because it gives me really bad heartburn and my stomach cramps as well. So he prescribes some other type of anti-inflammatory. The weekend passes and i kinda get to relax. Even my mom (who i love dearly but really doesn’t have the best bedside manner) is worried about me and my physical/emotional state. By Sunday i realise that hey i am starting to feel better (for the first time)... Yay! One thing is bothering me though – i am having a bit of difficulty breathing well and eating at the same time. It is a type of heartburn but my chest also hurts a bit.

Come to work this morning and eat breakfast... I suddenly feel quite a sharp pain in my chest – as if somebody is pushing against it. Also, my throat hurts and i just have trouble breathing well. (don’t worry – not that bad just irritating). So i read up about the medication on the internet and it specifies that you can experience respitory problems in some cases but you need to contact your doctor. So i phone my doctor and ask her about it. She says yes it is possible to have a respitory infection and that i should rather come see her, so that she can assess and maybe give me something that would help the medication not burn a hole through my throat, chest and stomach.

Now finally all i want to say is: WHAT THE FUCK MAN! Enough with the pills, the pain and the doctor’s bills... My ass is still sore, but now i have a type of throat infection to deal with as well... Argh... i just need to VENT...

Fluit, fluit my storie is uit...